I Wish I were a Child too...

Just smile at everybody......have a nice sleep wherever I am and whenever I want....
be with whoever I want to be with......spread the innocence all around...........
make my neighbor envy.......dream about nothing.................
blabber meaninglessly and be understood.....hit somebody still don't get them hurt...........
not to dream about anything much.......dance with my loved one...........
tell someone I'm thinking of them......listen to someone's heart..........
be cared by............... be with a friend always...........

babble something to console a friend.........feel possessive of a friend.............
weep in ignorance................not to hold any grudge..........spread loveliness...................
feel the humor...............feel like a hero.........
feel the comfort in others.........undergo solitude sometime.......get the blessings...................
not to wait for someone to say yes......... rejoice with my fellas.........

make everybody happy............

Time is too slow for those who wait,
Too swift for those who fear,
Too long for those who grieve,
Too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, Time is eternity .

Nostalgia...

Work Pressure...Is it getting on to me? Sometimes I feel like running away from all of these things that binds me. My inner self tells me something else; that I have to carry on like this for some more time if not forever...


My family complains that I should eat more so that I put on more weight.. they will be surprised if they come to know that I am dieting or in fact Maintaining myself by eating once a day and having fruits for dinner... Don't know how good or bad it's gonna be.. but I do not like the idea of putting on and looking hefty...


Have been thinking of going home this winter, it would be 3rd time this year that I'd be home and first Winter break in 8 years... Have missed 8 winters in a row, can't seem to wait but it's going to be for a short period 7 days, feeling sad as these 7 days will past in no time and I will back to what I am doing now - work and more work!!

I guess this is what we call LIFE, if it gives you good times with one hand, it also takes away something with the other hand..

This is where the story ends...

...continued from my previous post.

Wondering what would be the end of the story? Well! let's see the turn around of events.....

HE :-- I guess, this is where everything ends.
SHE :-- Can nothing be done? Don't wanna lose you...
HE :-- I am too confused and skeptical of the future, what if...
SHE :-- ...............[Wet eyes...]

Well! Not all love stories has a happy ending...

The gal feels she can't get over the Guy, the guy knows that's not true and she will find someone and HE will be PAST in no time whereas the same mayn't be true for Him.

Is it the best way to find/look for solace in someone's arm in an attempt to forget someone??
Is that a solution? Or you are inviting more troubles and worries for yourself?? Some questions ha??? God knows!

[Days gone... And..]

HE :-- How have you been? Hope, things are going on well on your side?
SHE :-- Superb! Never felt better..
HE :-- Am so happy to hear that.
SHE :-- Are you?
HE :-- Why? You still seem to have got some bitterness for me
SHE :-- Nope! Not at all. I have moved on... and very glad that I have found a reason to be...

See...the Guy was right? Wasn't he? He was elated to hear this piece of information from the Gal and as expected he wished her for a bright future..

HE :-- You won't know how happy I am to hear this.. May be you wouldn't understand-all that I have done was for your own good.
SHE :-- Thanks..[Still bitterness in her mind.. may never ever understand the guy.]
HE :-- You are always welcome. Take care!! [May God always be with you and bless you in all that you do....]

No guilty feelings for the guy for all he wanted/wished was only good things for her and finally all seems well on her side.

This is were my story ends...hope the gal lives that "happily ever-after dreams" for as long as she lives...

They are happy...

... continued from my previous post.

HE :-- Got some news for you!
SHE :-- Even I got to tell you something.

HE :-- Okay! you first...
SHE :-- I told my parents about you.
HE :-- Ya?
SHE :-- Yes!!
HE :-- Then?
SHE :-- They were really happy to know...
HE :-- Hmmmm.... That's good news!
SHE :-- Are you not happy??
HE :-- I am. Why shouldn't I be?
SHE :-- Don't look so excited, that's why?

HE :-- Actually, I had the same news for you..
SHE :-- What?
HE :-- I told my parents too....
SHE :-- AND???
HE :-- And.....
SHE :-- What????

HE :-- They were happy to know about you...
SHE :-- Really? I thought otherwise...

...to continue

Was the chemistry right?

... continued from my previous post.

HE :-- Hey!
SHE :-- Hi!
HE :-- I need to tell you something..
SHE :-- Am all ears for you....

HE :-- I guess I'm beginning to like you..
SHE :-- Like me?
HE :-- Hmmm...
SHE :-- We hardly know each other...
HE :-- Well! Does that matter??
SHE :-- Doesn't it?
HE :-- So you mean to say you don't like me?
SHE :-- I didn't say that.
HE :-- So, you like me?
SHE :-- I didn't mean that either.
HE :-- Confused? or trying to confuse me?
SHE :-- Can't say.

After few days....

HE :-- I love you....
SHE :-- Hmmm.. I love you...I am so blessed to have you.. Do you think we can make it?
HE :-- Hmmm... Can't say but let's see. What say?
SHE :-- Hmmm.. You are right. Everything looks like a dream to me...
HE :-- It's a dream only... who would have thought that we would ever cross our path like this...
SHE :-- True. Do not wake me up from this dream....
HE :-- Hmmmm... Never!

...to continue

Jab they met...

HE :-- Hi!
SHE :-- Hello!

HE :-- How have you been?
SHE :-- Good, You?
HE :-- Good.
SHE :-- Really??
HE :-- Why? Don't you believe me?
SHE :-- No, nothing like that...

HE :-- Hmmmm.. Been busy with life, trying to figure out/search a way to happiness..
SHE :-- You sound so serious!!
HE :-- Really? Am I?
SHE :-- Ummm.. you do.
HE :-- Well! Am like that, what to do?
SHE :-- It's okay.. then

HE :-- Then...
SHE :-- I mean, what plans for the future... Shaadi waadi??
HE :-- Hey! Haven't thought of it as yet, but I will.
SHE :-- Yes, you have to..
HE :-- Yep! What about you? I mean we aren't getting any younger.
SHE :-- True. I know what you're trying to say but I have been not so fortunate in finding the right guy.
HE :-- Oh! See who is talking...
SHE :-- It's true...believe me.
HE :-- Hmmmm.. But I guess you know all about me.
SHE :-- I do but maybe not everything..

HE :-- Okay, fair enough...
SHE :-- Hmmmm...


...to continue

Easier said than done...

People come and go, that's life..... We are left with sour feelings.. we feel can't get over it, we even say I can't forget him/her-some sentiments ha??... Let me tell you folks out there-Nothing is permanent. As every other phase, this part of your life will be gone before you could sit back and realize it really did....

I know of people having said this and that... promises, hmmm I don't give a damn, not anymore.... But that's life, we have to learn to accept things and not try to control it... Certain things are good when they are left alone...

This is what I've learned over the last few days... I may have made decisions not entertained by a sect of people, but that's alright... they haven't and will never understand me. I don't blame them for anything, that's the way I am.... can't help it...

I have learned to be more hard on myself now, have thrown all the sentiments away... not fully succeeded, will succeed someday, and that day will be a bliss....

I sometimes feel I will become a recluse, go somewhere far away from the reach of people...no duties, no responsibilities-wouldn't life be a blessing?? May be, May be not?? That's why- "it is easier said than done".

Relationship....

Been long time since I last wrote something...
Hmmmm.. have been busy.. My folks(mom and 2 sisters) were in town.. had a hell of a good time, good food yummmmmm!!!!!!

This is not a sequel to what I have written before... just a second thought....

It's strange how we take to "Relationships"... Some get too involved in it that they breath it... To some its the same old way of treating it, they may say they do care on the face of it but deep inside it is clear they do not know how certain Relations should be treated... It hurts when you are in such a situation...

Now, coming to my folks, they were here for 2 weeks, hmmm missing them already... I, being the obedient son :), played the role to perfection, I guess... Missing 'chagempomba'- yummmy..My favorite Meitei dish... I wish I could have it everyday....

Random thoughts....

Not everything that we do matters to all, and things that we do not do may all that matter to all.. It is in our nature that we sometimes/all the time do something and end up feeling guilty and regret of things...
However, we try we may not be able to come out of it.. consolations seems useless during these times.. But I have a few questions, Does these things really matter at the end of it?? Do they really count to our being?? I guess these are questions never answered or we keep it unanswered...So much of uncertainties...

One way, its good. Good because we shouldn't really be bothered with these things for they may not bring any positive change in our live... Why worry of such things and waste our time and spoil our present? I guess we have better things to look for, to think of that at the end may enlighten our future...

MAA....

MAA... the first word we'd learn in this world and perhaps the most beautiful and meaningful word...

SHE takes so much of pain for us and do not give slightest of sign that SHE is in pain... stays awake for us when we are sick... fights with the world to bring us up and yet SHE has no complaints when we do not listen to her, when we ignore her words... but do we really have that RIGHT to hurt HER even for a second?? I believe we don't... But there are people who become just too selfish and self-centered that there is no happiness beyond their happiness, no world beyond their world... they start ignoring the very presence of the person who have taken so much for pain for them... In the end, will we ever be happy by hurting and bringing tears to HER, temporarily maybe... And what do we do when we realise our mistake-if we ever do!!

I would not give myself that chance, never... will never think of doing anything that would bring tears in the eyes of the Mother who have born so much pain for me...

Good times ahead...

We eagerly wait for those times when we'll be with our beloved and when the time comes we do not want that time to pass...want to hold on to every second as if there is no tomorrow... Its such a wonderful feeling and these are moments to treasure... will put in everything that I can to make those moments memorable...

Time waits for none and I'm no exception and I will cherish every single moment of my life... will welcome everyday with open arms...and love around...

In pursuit of happiness...

Happiness - Is it just a state of the mind? Or Is it a simple harmony between a man and the life he leads? No answer would ever be perfect...

We leave no stone unturned to find Happiness and yet we fail to understand that we can experience happiness in those small things that we do everyday... In the way we treat or deal with people around us... not looking for our own satisfaction but by doing things which may make people around us happy thereby making their day...

We will never be happy if we continue to search for what happiness consists of. We will never live if we keep looking for the meaning of life. On the other hand, we may find happiness if we always have something to do, something to love, and something to hope for...

Will it be proper if I say being self-sufficient is a way to find Happiness...

Another addition to the family tree...

Good news around... A baby opened eyes in this world and I became a second time uncle, hope the baby has brought good times for the family... Keep dreaming of the days when we'll all be together and happiness all around...

In moments of happiness we want to include all those people we consider close and care for...Its another thing that not everyone share the same feeling... However, this shouldn't hinder the celebration... its celebration time...

May God bless the baby with the best of health...

Home sweet home!!!

Haven't been home for a year... Nothing much have changed back home… the birds still chirps early in the morning…the sun still rises as early as 4:30 in the morning and shines on the early morning dews… what a view… hate to miss…

This time around I felt some kind of satisfaction...I feel more responsible today than ever before... Those values that I have been taught and inculcated over the years haven’t gone wasted (I feel)…

In some way, I’m so much indebted to my people, to my place… My birthplace …

No doubt, today the place mayn't be the safest place to live and we compromise this by staying away...however, MY place is as cool as ever and I miss every second that I'd spent there...

Optimism...

No man is perfect or nothing in this world is perfect for that matter...One moment you feel you'd got all the happiness of the world and it doesn't take more than a second to realize how wrong you were.... all dreams left shattered...

There are moments when we believe, there couldn't be a better moment for us in this lifetime but like sand in the hands these moments just slips away... sometimes leaving behind soar thoughts...

Its life and we all have to face it the way it unfolds...... Optimism thrives -A little balancing act, some flexibility and total openness of mind, coupled with self-confidence and a positive attitude, are required to ensure that we stay happily connected with this world....

Relationship...

How do we define 'Relationship'? Is it a/an 'Connection','Association' or 'Affiliation'?

Whatever the definition says, people in relationships try to understand the inherent intricacies to make relationships a success.
People feel responsible towards each other...always find a way to be there for the one they care, Isn't it a wonder?
Isn't it a beautiful social associations - an associations between people of the same or differing thoughts.

God finds a way to associate people in some or the other.. Father-son, brother-sister, husband-wife.....

I'm so blessed to have been born...to such wonderful parents who always supported me, in a way I always had my way.. Now its my turn to give back...
Today, I feel so overwhelmed - its a great feeling.. Finally, I feel I've found a reason to live for... Will do all that I can to make this work....

WOMAN

I always wonder-had God not made his Masterpiece, WOMAN, what would have happened to this world.. Women as they say are the most mysterious creation of God and rightly so they really are mysterious.
They are the symbol of Love and Sacrifice. From the day they come to this world, till their last minute on this earth, they only had sacrificed all they had so that people around them are happy. When sad they would not welcome a third person's sympathy. We always have this feeling women are the weaker sex, well that may look good on paper but not so in reality. Men are weaker than women emotionally and mentally. A man always feels the need of someone in moments of despair.

Still women are always given a second look in everything that we do in this male-dominated world. Have we forgotten women bring lives on this earth? The first word a baby learns to say is ‘Mother’ and the last word of a dying man is also ‘Mother’. Then why all these indifferences? Why are they suppressed and kept? Don’t they deserve much better than what they get?

Women today are no longer dependent on men for money or social status. They are now celebrating their hard-earned freedom Women today are really strong and show it off in their actions, too. They believe in using mind power while making their choice instead of knuckling under social obligations and conforming to gender stereotypes. Their ability to take risks has gone up a few notches and that is why we see this radical shift.....

They have my highest regards and will always respect them of what they are ....